[ Fitting in is a new one—so new that deep, deep in one corner of his brain, there might be a flattered fourteen-year-old going do I fit in? do you really think so? golly!—but he does know slightly better than to start arguing about his own popularity. Even if he wins, he loses. ]
[Only of course it's not really nothing, so, after an appropriately short beat--]
Except if it's poorly controlled and organized, isn't that blame shared by you? [AND ANOTHER THING] Of course you don't want me saying anything agitating. Maker forbid your life be made difficult, or your assumptions of the world be challenged. You might have to make a hard choice. Which I would have at one time thought you capable of, but fuck no.
Or, actually, Kostos falls silent, and makes a brief attempt at disentangling a knot of impulses, like claiming entitlement to his conversation because they're family and continuing to insist he only technically has one of those, and telling Nikos exactly what leaving Nevarra meant for him and never telling him a Maker-damned thing, offense at mistreatment and acceptance that it's still better than he deserved—
So trying to yank all of that apart obviously doesn't work, and he gives up after like three seconds. ]
Fine.
[ He'll stop talking. He'll think very hard about disowning and disavowing him, and slightly less hard about jumping off a tower, but he won't do those things, probably. ]
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Date: 2019-04-16 08:49 pm (UTC)[ Maybe. Probably. The part with the dumplings and the table is more than half true. ]
And it will pale in comparison to you being thrown out of a notoriously poorly controlled organization because you cannot shut the fuck up.
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Date: 2019-04-17 03:24 am (UTC)Aren't you a leader of it now? Some stupid fucking position you slipped into, because you can't help fitting in.
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Date: 2019-04-18 02:25 am (UTC)What does that have to do with anything?
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Date: 2019-04-18 04:53 pm (UTC)[Only of course it's not really nothing, so, after an appropriately short beat--]
Except if it's poorly controlled and organized, isn't that blame shared by you? [AND ANOTHER THING] Of course you don't want me saying anything agitating. Maker forbid your life be made difficult, or your assumptions of the world be challenged. You might have to make a hard choice. Which I would have at one time thought you capable of, but fuck no.
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Date: 2019-04-19 02:53 am (UTC)[ The beginning of an incredulous repetition, but he abandons it. ]
Do you really want to talk about making my life difficult, Nikos? That's a conversation you want to have?
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Date: 2019-04-19 10:15 pm (UTC)[Nikos,
kingelectorally chosen chairman of comebacks.]Disown me or disavow me or jump off a tower but stop fucking talking to me about what I choose to say, freely, and of my own accord.
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Date: 2019-04-19 11:32 pm (UTC)Or, actually, Kostos falls silent, and makes a brief attempt at disentangling a knot of impulses, like claiming entitlement to his conversation because they're family and continuing to insist he only technically has one of those, and telling Nikos exactly what leaving Nevarra meant for him and never telling him a Maker-damned thing, offense at mistreatment and acceptance that it's still better than he deserved—
So trying to yank all of that apart obviously doesn't work, and he gives up after like three seconds. ]
Fine.
[ He'll stop talking. He'll think very hard about disowning and disavowing him, and slightly less hard about jumping off a tower, but he won't do those things, probably. ]