[He makes a sound through his teeth, something like a laugh.]
I should have known. Riftwatch, the Inquisition, would be no better than anything else. I'd hoped-- [Hope, ugly, foolish; Nikos lip curls at himself.] --it would be. I don't see how to continue like this.
It's that we still have access. We can still - talk to the people who make choices, and convince them of what we believe. We couldn't do that on our own.
I'm less convinced of that with every passing day. It would be more productive to be buried up to my neck in pig shit than to continue to make my case to deaf ears.
The people who make the choices. Who are they? How did they get those positions? There is nothing equal about it. It's the same as every structure in every part of this fucking world. Even if one intends good, it doesn't matter. None of it matters.
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Date: 2019-10-22 05:46 am (UTC)I should have known. Riftwatch, the Inquisition, would be no better than anything else. I'd hoped-- [Hope, ugly, foolish; Nikos lip curls at himself.] --it would be. I don't see how to continue like this.
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Date: 2019-10-22 12:03 pm (UTC)I guess either leave - leave, and try to find some structure elsewhere that can make changes - Or keep trying to change Riftwatch itself. Right?
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Date: 2019-10-22 05:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-22 05:48 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-10-24 01:49 am (UTC)[ She thinks a moment. ]
It's that we still have access. We can still - talk to the people who make choices, and convince them of what we believe. We couldn't do that on our own.
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Date: 2019-10-24 07:15 pm (UTC)The people who make the choices. Who are they? How did they get those positions? There is nothing equal about it. It's the same as every structure in every part of this fucking world. Even if one intends good, it doesn't matter. None of it matters.
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Date: 2019-10-24 07:28 pm (UTC)Have you ever asked for any authority? A position with Riftwatch?
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Date: 2019-10-25 03:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-25 03:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-25 05:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-25 02:21 pm (UTC)[ A shrug. ]
That's how you get to make the choices, isn't it.
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Date: 2019-10-27 12:57 am (UTC)Seemingly out of nowhere--]
Caspar is back in Antiva. You've met him. [He Knows.] If either of two of us should be leading something, it's him.